Mid-Life Crisis

Is it possible I am having a mid-life crisis?

I find myself almost continually fantasizing about "getting the heck out of Dodge". I remember being a teenager counting the days until I graduated and got to leave the small town I grew up in. My parents used to sing that 60's song to us: "We gotta get out of this place...if it's the last thing I ever do." Now more than 20 years (gulp) later I have that song ringing in my head again.

Now, unlike most of my male counterparts who suffer from midlife crisis, I don't imagine a life without my husband and kids. One spent traveling to far off places with a buff young love interest on my arm. I think about selling our house, packing up my family and backpacking through Europe. I even checked into the cost...and found we can only afford a year in India, South America or Costa Rica. Again reality hitting me between the eyes!

I've even tainted my kids. Asking them if they want to leave it all behind and try something completely new...just the four of us.

I fantasize that my husband will be irresponsible and buy some tiny sports car (that I can use to escape on weekends.)

I feel trapped in suburbia...the mortgage, tuition, carpools, the school activities, the yard work and never ending "to do" list.

We are even doing a small group at church entitled " Death By Suburb - How to keep Suburbia from killing your soul". The sign up sheet was COMPLETELY filled the first day it was announced. What does that tell you? It tells me I'm not alone!